Psalms 46:10

"Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." -Psalms 46:10

God has been revealing to me a lot about trusting Him through His word. Throughout life struggles, I have always been able to rely on Him and trust in Him, ultimately to see me through. However losing a child has been the worst, most painful and emotionally exhausting "storm" that has come my way by far!
I am thankful to say, He has brought us a long way in the last 9 months, bringing us from the days that didn't seem bearable to days that come and go, with tears shed, but with an amazing hope.
Being pregnant now is truly a blessing, but has really tested my ability to just trust and let go of worries.
I'd like to share a reading from one of the devotionals I'm reading through now. It is called Jesus Calling by Sarah Young.
"Trust Me by relinquishing control into My hands. Let go, and recognize that I am God. This is my world: I made it and I control it. Yours is a responsive part in the litany of Love. I search among My children for receptivity to Me. Guard well this gift that I have planted in your heart. Nurture it with the Light of My Presence.
When you bring Me prayer requests, lay out your concerns before Me. Speak to Me candidly; pour out your heart. Then thank Me for the answers that I have set into motion long before you can discern results. When your requests come to mind again, continue to thank Me for answers that are on the way. If you keep on stating your concerns to Me, you will live in a state of tension. When you thank Me for how I am answering your prayers, your mind-set becomes much more positive. Thankful prayers keep your focus on My Presence and My promises."
I am determined to put this into practice for the rest of this pregnancy and in the years to come. So far, it feels a lot better, than the mind-set of worry I had been in. Don't get me wrong, it is still a struggle. I have never been a very anxious person until this past year. I don't know how best to descibe it other than a shaky horrible feeling that leaves you sick to your stomach, all coming from negative thinking that you just can't seem to control. It takes a lot of energy on your own to calm yourself down when worry and anxiety enters your mind. It's a lot more manageable with the help of The Helper. Thank goodness for a Lord who bears our burdens and lightens our load.
Today, I did something I told myself and Isaac I would not do this pregnancy, and that was to buy clothes in preparation for our new baby boy. I only bought a of couple of outfits but you know what, it felt good to not feel so doubtful and just trust that we would be bringing home a baby this time.
We have chosen a name for the baby that also symbolizes our trust that God is going to bless us. His name is Nathaniel Josiah, meaning given of God, God sustains.
Thank you for your continued prayers!